Inability to Pray
theophilus December 19th, 2007
It’s a serene morning – the clouds are rushing by, exposing pockets of sun and a brilliant blue sky. A short respite from the gray and precipitation that has been our lot for the past month or so.
It’s also respite from the killer week I’ve just had to get through. I’ve been overwhelmed at work and have battled an annoying sinus infection. And, I was unable to really pray and focus on my relationship with Christ.
And now that my head is clear – both physically and at the office – I can now focus on my prayer life and getting in touch with Christ in the short time I have left before Christmas.
But, after periods like this one, I wonder why I always have it backwards. Shouldn’t I be especially focused on Christ and my prayer life when I am sick and overwhelmed? And, why can’t I have this focus?
It would make my life easier if I called on Christ in times of trouble, instead of just when the waters are calm.
We are supposed to turn to him every moment of every day – offering our every prayer, work, joy and suffering. But, when I am rushing about or when my head is so congested that I just want to cut it off, I forget to turn inwards for help.
And that makes my tough times that much tougher.
I know I will be rushed again at work (and that’s a good thing). I know I will have another cold (hopefully not too soon). So, I’m going to try again. And this time, I hope to consciously walk with Christ to get through the rough terrain.
Turning ourselves completing over to him really does make our lives easier. I guess that’s my Advent lesson this year.
